Summer skepticism??! hell no!

 Spring is now fully in flourish and with the sun beating down I can feel the excitement of summer on its way. Along with the excitement comes a weirdly sick feeling deep in my stomach. This could be related to early bedtimes as a child while my friends would be out playing in our street on their bikes, or it could be because I actually don't know what summer means for me?
 Now that probably seems like such a strange question, because summer usually means BBQ's, beach trips and longer days to most of us. But for me its held a detachment for loving this season itself.
 Having suffered with anorexia since 16, my years were spent hiding my body at any cost, therefore summer being the season to bare the body, wasn't something that thrilled me in the slightest!

Almost 10 years later, and numerous hospital admissions firmly behind me. I am now faced with many questions to ask and decisions to make of where Id like my future to be heading. With the brightness of the sun beaming around I can no longer run from it, but try my best to embrace the season I have tried so long to avoid.

 To help me focus on my Summer dilemma issue, I went back to basics. In today's world it is so easy to ignore the very simple things most of us take for granted. Our "Senses"
Touch, Smell, Taste, Hearing, Seeing.

 Bright colours seem already big this season, walk down your high street and I guarantee there will be quite a few tops and chunky heels that will catch your eye! Today I treated myself to a gorgeous pair of tear drop earrings in the most outrageous of colours!  Apparently there is scientific evidence that wearing something bright enhances your mood. So with a bright summer, I aim for a bright me!

Of course with every summer comes the usual "bikini banter". I dare you to go in to your newsagents and to pick up a magazine that does not have a diet heavy plan for the "heaven sent abs and thighs", not to mention the daily exercise routine to go with!
 Now I know I may seem a bit of a condratictor in my "words of wisdom here", but bare with me! I know my nutrition! The amount of nutritionists I've seen, the amount food management groups I've sat through, and don't forget my internal encyclopaedia of calorie content in every food from varying supermarkets! I'm not saying at all that this is what you should do! This was a very ill girl, with very bad esteem and confidence. If I had known then what I do now, I'm not quite so sure I would have gotten to such a bad state....
 Anyway! what I wanted to put across is a "diet" usually sums up the idea of carrot sticks, water and salads.... Which is where the term "Nutrition" is all the more effective.
 When you have the following food groups in your daily intake of food,(Protein -e.g meats, fish, beans/pulses), Fruit+Veg), (Carbohydrates - e.g. cereal, pasta,rice,potatoes,bread) (Dairy - e.g. yogurt, cheese, milk), (Fat+Sugar- e.g. butter, olive oil, biscuits,) - the body will use what it needs and let go of what it doesn't need. The human body is a very clever thing, it will always have a set point for the weight it wants you to be, to be healthy inside and out.

I will always fret about my body, but first I have to accept it, and this summer I aim to try to do just that! I am looking forward to wearing dresses, my first proper BBQ's and swimming in the sea :)
 What does summer mean for you? If you are in the same predicament as me, it could be best to find what you appreciate from your "senses" what is pleasing to your eye?, peachy to your skin?, and perfect for your taste?, may just perk up a priceless summer!!!